BrOkEn HeArTeD

2010-02-19T08:35:00.000-08:00

will be on a long hiatus, maybe back, or might just abandon this blog for good.

2010-01-28T10:19:00.000-08:00

爱你好像半暝坐火车啊
梦摇来摇去心惊惶
睡了一下惊醒一下
咪眼看窗外到了哪
你的爱就像星辰
偶尔很亮偶尔很暗
我不盼绚丽的灿烂
只求为光能挡风寒
是甘愿也就不怕难
不甘愿早放声哭喊
我要你什么都不管
倔强变勇敢茫然变释然
是甘愿所以能美满
不甘愿才会说伤感
我爱你心就特别软
平淡也浪漫无语也温暖
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im back blogging.
i've stopped blogging for a long time.
probably this time round, its too much to take it.
aching.
heart aching to be exact
somewhere deep in the heart feels pain, tears and wadever shit.

i wish whatever u say is just becos u are sleeping and u dont know whats happening.
i feel like shouting hysterically,i feel like giving up literally.

u wuldnt noe how it feels becos it doesnt affect u at all.

u have been changing too drastically for me to catch up, yet u can still treat it as nothing happen.

sometimes i wish to avoid it, keep it from u, hide it thought that i never know abt it or even realise it. i cant.

i feel super disappointed in u. very extremely.

i dun know how to treat u.

i want u to be wad u used to be desperately,
yet it makes me feel like im begging u for love.
when u start saying why shld i change, why shld i do this why shld i do that.
it seems to show me the fact that u are not interested in the relationship anymore, it hurts,

am i too demanding? i just want a boyfren who treats me good. is it that bad.
why every other girl could enjoy this without sacrificing bt i cant

i feel like giving up. i dont see a hope.
my hard work and sacrifices are not seen, u dun appreciate even understand
i dun wan to give in anymore.
u only know how to think of resting, im tired too
mentally and physically exhausted by the huge amt of work to do and part time job.
i hate it.
yet not being understanding, i know u tired, bt does it mean u can throw ur temper at me, flare at me and be impatient.
i'm tired too not just u
i let u get rest in mrt or wadever,
u give me that freaking look, i just take it,
u want to sleep throughout the whole night, i allow u.
everything u just wan to do it alone, den what for need me?
i think i can just leave.
u are happy without me.

u used to tell me u can timagine life without me.
i think u have forgotten abt it.

leave it.

i've tried too hard swallowing the rubbish attitudes and stuff u showed me.

im too tired.

are u still gonna change

do u still wan this relationship.

stop hurting.

心碎...

2009-10-14T12:43:00.000-07:00

愿我会查火箭带你到天空去
在太空中两人住
活到一千岁都一般心醉
有你在身边多乐趣
共你双双对好得戚好得意
地lum天崩当闲事
就算翻风雨只需睇到你
似见阳光千万里
有了你开心的也都称心满意
咸鱼白菜也好好味
我与你永共鈙分分钟需要你
你似是阳光空气

扮靓的皆因你癫癫地皆因你
为你甘心作傻事
扮下猩猩叫睇到也都笑
有你在身边多乐趣
若有朝失左你花开都不美
愿到荒岛去长住
做个假的你天天都相对
对木头公仔做戏

分分钟需要你 by 林子祥
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huggies

2009-10-14T09:56:00.001-07:00

u always dun want me to find other guys and chat.
den where are u when i need u to be there listening.

life sucks.

2009-10-13T11:45:00.000-07:00

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor,
Reachin for the phone cause i cant fight it anymore,
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time,

(Chorus)
It's a quarter after one, im all alone and I need you now
I said i wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now
And i dont know how I can do without, I just need you now

Another shot of whisky cant stop lookin at the door
Wishin you'd come sweepin in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind,
For me it happens all the time..

(Chorus)
Its a quarter after one im a little drunk and I need you now
I said i wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I dont know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess i'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all...

Its a quarter after one im all alone and I need you now,
and I said I wouldnt call but im a little drunk and I need you now
and I dont know how I can do without,
I just need you now
I just need you now

Ohh baby I need you now

Need you now by lady antebellum

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I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

When you're gone - avril lavigne
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2009-10-12T12:46:00.000-07:00

sorry babes, hunks and whoever,
i turned down like more than 10 outings meetings and wadever
I'M VERY SORRY alright.
will catch up with you guys and girls soon no matter u are dpa, dba, cts, gesps, and the list goes on.
I 'M SORRY
.......................
i wish life is better.

2009-10-12T12:41:00.000-07:00

sigh .
speechless.
down before evrything starts
i'm feeling so down down down..
evrything is just not right.
evryone doesnt like me as much.
all e things are going against me.
how much i dislike it,
i have to stay and stand strong here.

have you seen the effort that i've put in?
have you appreciate everything i've done?
have you understnad wad i want?

breaking down.
someone pls save me.

2009-09-22T11:39:00.000-07:00

ok. its gonna be another 9 months of wait, torture and wadever shit.

=/ blah

endless waitttttt~

2009-08-11T10:22:00.000-07:00

我的了解让我自由
一场雨有时候下得不是时候
就像你说难过不是真的难过
你到底懂不懂我只要一个安稳的等候

你到底懂不懂
想你想得好像空气都停了...

2009-08-05T18:49:00.000-07:00

i'm missing you badly
-------
I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

2009-08-05T18:41:00.000-07:00

To the nights that become mornings, and the friends that become family.

To the friends you can count on when you lose your way.

To the thousands of miles that come between best friends that don't change a thing, because distance doesn't mean a thing. Because when it comes down to it, your only a phone call away.

To the friends who helped you along the way. Because without them you would have never made it.

To the one person who has your heart. Because each day is better than the last, knowing you have someone to love and they will love you back.

To the late night phone calls, the one person you feel complete with, the person who can brighten your day with the little things he says, the person who is always on the other end of the telephone when your world feels like its falling apart. Because no matter what happens, you have them, and they have you.. and that's all you need.

To that one person you can't wait to see at the end of the day, that person who will surprise you just to show he loves you.

To the person who holds your heart in his hands, and trusting him with it. Because he's that good, that perfect.

To the one person you can honestly say has made you truly happy in your heart and in your head. Because he is everything you ever wanted.

To that one person you love unconditionally.

♥♥♥

credits to shannon =D

2009-08-04T10:18:00.000-07:00

argh why are u always not here when i need you the most?
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im starting to feel stress.
exams are approaching
im like just started the first few chapts of mob
=/
argggggghhhhhh
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i miss cheer, gusto
there's no turning back.
i miss the people there,
i miss doing stunts.
i miss trg together despite i alwys fail.
no turning back.....

im not going back to ds animore,
i dun have a partner,
i dun feel like going back altho i still feel like dancing,
i dislike some seniors ther thou both of them is like xpired,
but still they are so active back in ds.
i dint buy that pair of shoes,
i just feel that i dun belong ther ,
ever since e camp.
so why go back.
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tired, stress,
and anxiety.

i'm missing you so badly,
still so many days to go,
how to bear with it.
i broke my promise for being strong whileu are not ard.

-

2009-08-04T04:20:00.000-07:00

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

2009-07-29T11:48:00.000-07:00

somehow i felt foolish,
foolish of exposing wadevr i feel to you,
foolish of knowing wadever u are going to tell me and whichever options u are choosing, and yet i still foolishly think that u might understand wad i want,
or give me wad i want.
i foolishly rejected when u nearly receeded,cause i think u are being forced.
i foolishly give up on my hope becos u have ur plans.

and i still foolishly think that with my results now i can get to dp.
u think i can.
i jolly well know that i cant.

why bother being foolish thinkin and going through so much stuff.
end up i still suffer.
blahhh.
my post shld be more cheerful.
i've to find my way to.

2009-07-29T11:45:00.000-07:00

one sentence to sum up everything

" wait, and leave it to fate"

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its sth i want yet i cant get

even if i can get it,

its not going to be near future.

i meant for everything.

everything that i mentioned.
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2009-07-19T09:01:00.001-07:00

okaeeee 4 more days..
im missing you loads.
wakaka have been talking to u on phone these days.
like e good old days.
cant wait to hug and kiss u always.
indigestion nausea as usual
i hate this feeling la.
sucks.
jus finish the things that have to hand in tml
gonna pack things soon.
<3
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i feel kinda upset.
u wan me on friday,
i help u on friday,
now u wan me to switch weekends.
i switch weekends.
i dun seems to have a choice myself.
maybe like always i seemed to be an easy going person
or is it becos u prefer her more than me.
kinda makes me wonder alot.
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hmm as for bf,
i dunno how to tell you how i feel or
wad i want.
cos i jolly well noes that wad i want is
sth we cannot afford
sth we wuldnt be doing
sth we are not gonna do in yrs to come,
sth not easy
its a long term thing,
it jus seems so impossible to me
and yet how wuld i convince u when it sounds so impossible to me
after days of thinking.
and how wuld i convince myself to tell u or talk to you about it,
when i jolly well noe wadever u are gonna tell me and whichever options u choosing.
i know it, yet why cant i let it go.
argh.
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next, im getting tired of studying.
idk is sp that fast paced or my life very fast paced,
or i really lose the passion and interest in studying
and i need some time to rest and carry on later.
but i just dun think time allows me to do so,
so wad if i dun study wad am i gonna do using that time.
i dun noe either.
so wad shld i do,
im like tiring out,
life in school seems so draining.
not becos of the competition not becos of the people,
becos my attitude isnt right, my heart and mind is not there.
i just dun feel like keep running in this race, i feel like sit down and rest,
before i can pace myself and run again.
i used to give all out in studies so as to not disappoint anione,
so as to give myself a stable job in e future,
but now i reallie think i need soem rest,
need to change my life and slow down my pace
but still , u think its posssible?
i dun think so
i dun believe in it myself,
i noe it sounds contradicting.
but hey, reality is so cruel okae,
once u stop its like u are behind pple,
and how will pple look at u,
and u think anione beside me allows me to do this for an invalid reason?
sigh
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life seems to be back to the down down down fallll....
i neeed a little breather,
i need to rest,
i wan to think abt stuff,
and do the things i wan to do,
instead of work study sleep eat.
i hate that.

2009-07-18T06:48:00.000-07:00

okae fine. its 6 more days.
went to get my hair extn done.
like !@#@@!$%$&$#Q years.
went shopping with clare
sort of productive as in i get clothes for the rest of the mth.
why arent u calling my boyyyy,.
reallie worrying me
idk why whenever i just dun feel that good or life isnt that good
u are always not ard and always nt appearing.
argh.
hais.
i hope hes not running away frm me becos of ytd's qn.
aniwae.
as usual im tired.

2009-07-17T09:48:00.000-07:00

a week more to go
wakaka. im missing u loads.
okae overall school stuff making me crazy
sometimes just feel that life have been too fast paced
i need sometime to sit down and think abt wad i want and do things that i wan to do
life have been revolving ard work and sch too much
guess before that was bf
suddenly i feel that i need some time for myself.
i need to enjoy this life and time that i have.
and share it with my frens too.
since bf is away im trying find some time for myself.
<3
im getting sleepy and tired easily
awwww.
yawns

2009-07-16T07:38:00.000-07:00

<3
okae 8 days to go one week past.
wakakaka.
i miss you loads.
keeping myself occupied with stuff to do.
im still very tired
i srsly dunno whyyyy.
medicine has been making me feel a little better
but still it sucks.
when i stop taking its there again
haissss.......
muacks. to dear.
take care

2009-07-15T09:40:00.001-07:00

im aching frm heart in a way.
not becos u made me angry or i miss you too much cos u are not ard.
bt becos of d,
if i haventget to fb and see your profile i'll never noe.
i hope im paranoid,
many "Why" in my heart.
dint u promise me u wun be contacting her.
den why wuld she be in your frens list.
i do wonder.
=/

2009-07-15T08:36:00.000-07:00

9 days to go... hahahaha..
SINGLE DIGIT like FINALLY.

i miss you loadsss
muackkksss.
im sleepy tonight..
<3

2009-07-14T06:25:00.000-07:00

okae its been the 6th day u are awayyyss..
i m missing you alot still esp when i see couples so close in e mrt,
it does remind me of the days we hadd.
i'm tired today shagggg.
sleepy.
got back my results i think overall better than i expected,
pacc 91
mob 80
but still saddening
pacc shld get better de lorrrrrrr..
=(
okae my appetite getting worseeee
cant even finish my sandwich today
and wads more its whole meal grain breaddd..
argh i dun wanna be underweight okae.
losing track on wad i wanna say
cos im watching fa zheng...
hahaa
bye

2009-07-13T09:41:00.000-07:00

okae lets see...
its like5 days since you are away...
i'missing you like mad.
today everything seems a breeze to meeeee...
except for e freaking gastrics.
all i can say im busy busy busy today.
almost fell asleep at yeo's( doesnt mean im slacking or nobody there)
just that im too tired.
itab classrm sucks la. make me feel so drrrryyy
i cant open my eyes and i start sneezing.
flu is killing me
like i've said many times, flu vaccine wun work okae.
training to flatten my stomach these days and take on advice on what to eat more and what not to eat. but my wholemeal grain bread totally wasted by the fried sweet potato and starchy rice for dinner
-,-
sians.
i wasnt able to me BA also
im missing them like effing maddd.
though talked to clare and eileen but still..
im misssing them.
at least i managed talking to dear on phone for quite a while.
missing him loads.
ughughuhg
i really cant wait to see you alrights. beloved botak.
haha.
im in a good mood today, at least for the unexpected modules i scored well...
ITAB 83
STATS 72
but im still=(
cos of econs.
i put in so much effort and there it goes.
hais.
my health seriously getting worse,
have totally no idea why my gastric is worsening.
and for goodness sake i take med on and off when i needed it.
and i dont skip meals, i at least eat sth in e morning.
i avoid alot of i noe i cant eat stuff.

low appetite, insomia,
nausea, whenever i wake up gastric comesssss......
pricking aching sensation in e stomach
thanks ah.
i hate it.

i gonna go running this wed, duncare la
i really wanna keep fit.
may god bless me .
hahhaa.

kpo-ing alot of strangers blog.
seeing alot of sweet stuff,
but i believe theres like alot of bitter stuff i havent been seeing.
yea,

im going off to bed or maybe dragonica for a whileeee.
sleeeeeepppppyyyyy

2009-07-13T00:55:00.001-07:00

I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY FROM ITAB
IM LIKE SO SHAGGGGGG....
MY LIPS AND EYES ARE LIKE DAMN DRYYYYYY
SIANS.

2009-07-12T10:09:00.000-07:00

ok 4th day.
i'm starting to miss you like crazy, kinda adapt to the little amt of msges and mins of talking but still whenever i hear ur voice i start bursting into tears.

went to buy cake and card for dearie's mummy, i was late, very late but luckily she's at home.
dunno,,, kinda when i go back to your place seeing your parents, i miss you real badly, i kind of try not to think abt it these days, but back to that familiar place with the familiar people, i start missing you alot alot. kinda on the verge of tears when your mum asked if you have called me.

received loads of your msges today, i really hope we can pull through these two months.i need you ard me badly.

hugs. muacks.

kinda lost track of wad to blog.

2009-07-11T10:16:00.000-07:00

3rd day since beloved is in NS...
means around another 11 days to go...
=\

the few sms and a short conversations on phone meant so much to me these days.
before he went in to ns, missing his calls and sms seems so normal.
now i seems to treat his smses and phone calls like precious.

finally got myself some sleep after few days of "none- sleep" nights.
guess im finally feeling alittle more tired.
trying to make myself occupied with stuff, started reading other people's blog
playing some games and doing school work,
but still i miss him whenever i saw the pics we took.

i miss you badly alright
esp when im falling sick right now,
plus life isnt that good.

i feel like hugging you and crapping with you.
=\
misses.

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2009-07-10T10:34:00.001-07:00

badly badly badly....

2009-07-10T10:29:00.000-07:00

absence make the hearts grow fonder..

imissbeloved badlyyy.
counting down to 13 more days.
life havent been that great.
i cant sleep well without you.
just feel so loser, when other people can face these two weeks so bravely
yet whenever i hear your voice i'll start crying ...
awww <3
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i need to reorganise my life.
i need to be more brave.
i need to keep myself busy
i need to complete alot of stuff.
i need to hoax myself to sleep.
=X
i want to see your botak head soon alrighttts.

2009-06-20T12:09:00.001-07:00

i just feel so far away from you.
sigh.

2009-06-20T10:50:00.000-07:00

OKie.
It does seems that i havent been posting for a long long time.
By tradition, I'm like supposed to thank everyone for e birthday thingy.

THANKS FOR ALL E SMS-ES AND WISHES AND EVERYTHING VIA INTERNET ALRIGHT.
HMMM THE LIST WHOM I M GONNA THANK IS:
TRICIA, HWEECHIN, BILLY, IRENE, YILIN, SINHUNG, JUNJIE,LINGYI, MANDY, SERENE, JAMES , HUIPENG, WEI KIAT, SHANNON, SIEWLING, MITCHELLE, AMY, WEE LENG, EILEEN , SINYEE,HENRY,CHEEKIAN,YIMING, AH YEO,ZHAOLIN, AND LUNNIE DEAR.

THANKS FOR PERSONAL GREETING =P
KAIYUAN, KOKLONG, JUNICO( DONT KNOW IF I GET HIS NAME RIGHT BUT HE WUN BE READING ANIWAE), SIEWLING, SHYNA,LINDI,& I CANT REALLIE RMB =P

THANKS TO SIEWLING JIE, HAHA THANKS FOR E LUNCH AND PRESENT EH.& MOST IMPTLY UR 17 MESSAGES..
STAY CHEERFUL <33.

THANKS TO LUNNIE DEAR, THANKS FOR SPENDING SO MUCH EFFORT CELERBATING MY BDAE
<33 U EEE POK -LY

OF COS THANKS TO MY FAMILY( THEY WONT BE SEEING SO WELL..)

NOT MUCH CELEBRATION THIS YEAR BUT IM HAPPIE ENOUGH.=D

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i noe this post came a little late but still... im busy lahhh
=P

i miss cheerleading somehow.
a little late to go back alr.
plus i dun wan to get back to the days where i am being nagged at.

dancesport makes me a little lazy, but still.. treating it as a normal cca.

mst is coming.
=\\\

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sometimes i dun feel like throwing temper or quarrelling either.
unavoidable.
a little disappointed sometimes,
maybe its the difference in thinking?
yes i love you,
but i just feel that the love u are like showing me and stuff are a little different
these days,
very hard to describe abt it.
lets hope everything will be alright./

2009-05-28T11:10:00.000-07:00

辽阔的海看不见边你说那才是你向往的天
沉默的我清楚看见平静之下有着隐藏的危险
无心的承诺说的随便
遥遥无期的永远是你坚持不变的信念
我的认真你总不在意
只想抛开所有的一切自由自在的飞

我跟爱妥协接受你坚持的信念

无路可退因为爱已不绝对

若是女人的心太野

就不能紧紧留在身边始终相随

我跟自己妥协放开你无忧的飞

没有选择只为爱太遥远

若是爱人的心不变

我又何必要无奈的妥协做痛苦的解决
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these days life have been very hectic, tired, busy, and lots more
on the verge of breaking down at least 2 times this week?
loads of stress overwhelming me yet i have nowhere to vent
r.s, cca, work
u've never get to know how much unhappiness i felt.
when i broke down into tears while working,
u will never noe , u were never there.
all i received frm u was
plenty and plenty of coldness and unhappiness
sometimes i just want to rest upon reaching home,
to u u jus wn me to do the impt things first,
probably emotions and everything have not came to ur life before,
maybe ur life have been too smooth sailing that u never fell into this patch before,
i just wan to rest and relax my mind.yet u'll get unhappie by this.
how contradicting our characters are.
when i just need a shoulder to lie on, u were never there
i dint tell u cos i noe u will never understand
i tried swallowing all the unhappiness i had.
yet i just cant control it.
i realise i just filled my life too much part of u
everything i consider is just u
and more u.
i spend my time with u, everything i think abt u.
u make my emotions goes up and down,
u make me going crazy,
i felt as if im being controlled.
suddenly awake.
maybe i shld start finding a direction of my life?
or maybe i shld take a rest frm now.

2009-05-10T08:16:00.000-07:00

whatever i have mentioned, dun ASSUME it is u.
I HAVE NO RESPONSIBILITY OF HOAXING U OR WHATEVER, IF U JUST ASSUME.
if u wanna know more, just come and talk to me yourself.

2009-05-10T07:48:00.000-07:00

it has been like ages since i ever touch this blog.
i shall just blog a little to show that im alive.
was sick for the whole week :/
teerrribbbbblllleee~
school life has started. bboring lessons thou.
cheerleading is still so <3
havent been going trg for a long time.
scared i rusty liao.
life has been okok, though too much things happening to me at once.
suddenly i have a lost of direction.
for friends, i dun really have much really true friends, its definitely true that its hard to find someone to replace ur own bff. it's definitely not easy to find someone who truly understands and listen to ur woes.

work has been good, thou i always love to grumble abt all sorts of patients i have.

studies, i have nothing to say abt this, cos i dunno hows my results gonna be.
for goodness sake, i dislike my pt,i dun even get to see him often.

cca, kinda filled with uncertainty, i dunno whether to continue in cheerleading or try dancesport. dear didnt want to give me ani opinion cos he's opposing both.
despite the fact that everyone dun support me going cheerleading, i still go ahead.
bt when things starts piling up, im the one who swallow everything no matter if i feel inferior i feeel sad i feel tired or wadever, no one is there to support me or help me out. suddenly i feel so lost. does it really mean i have to give up what i wanted?

r.s,i'm lost in a way or two.
i still feel so unsafe no matter how u stop her from contacting u or what.
i just dun feel good enough. probably throughout the r.s that i had, my trust to the other half or rather boyfriend have been dropping. i dunno how to trust u. sometimes i feel so inconfident of myself. sometimes i just feel like letting u go, giving u up. because i just feel that im not good enough for u, im unable to mixed ard well with ur friends and family, i dun treat u well enough.
im not pretty, not intelligient, nor smart, i dun have a nice body figure or wadever.
sometimes i really do feel so lost, and with her appearance, with wadever u told me, i feel even more insecure, even more unsafe, i became so paranoid and emotional.
i start to doubt abt my abilities being a wonderful gf.
probably she can be someone better?
i cling on becos i always believe u are the one, yet i start contradicting myself due to wadever weakness i have.

friendship, again, i mentioned twice but probably different matter.
im not a tool, stop using me to get wadever u wan, i can try to help, but pls tok to me in a nice way, stop using me like a tool to get free books for u or wadever,look at ur attitude. stop taking advantage of me.
i know i can be very nice to people, but it doesnt mean u can just take advantage of me.
u wan me to help you, of cos i can, but pls let me feel that my work and wadever effort i put in is worth it.
another pt probably, i'm not something for u guys to mock about sacarstically.
i had enough of being an entertainment for u guys to mock at.
dont think i dun know what u all are talking abt.
pretned to care and stuff, for goodness sake, i just reply lol and stuff, doesnt mean i let u off, it just that i treat u as a friend and i dun wan to flare at u.
when i flare at u , u shld noe what will happen for our friendship.
i had enough of nonsense.
i jolly well know what are my abilities and things that is beyond my limits,
but it doesnt mean these are supposed to be things u can laugh at me with.

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overall, sometimes i dunno where to head i dunno who to talk to
maybe im just not a very nice friend a very nice gf and a very nice classmate.
sometimes i just feel so out of place, i feel so stress, i get emotional, i just totally dunno how to swallow so many problems happening in so many aspects of life at one time, alone.
sometimes i just feel like running away from whatever i have.
just do nothing just think abt nothing just stop feeling stress about aniting.
but yet i cant.
i have no much shelter for me to take a break from all these.
in short, i feel so breathless.
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that's life i guess.
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okae. it seems to be enough for today.
i'll cheer up, i'll stay strong.

2009-03-07T08:20:00.000-08:00

=DD
life has been good lately, except for the terrible gastric pain.
hmmmmmmmm i'm totally in love with astons specialist luhhhhhh.
yumyum.
life in sp is good =D
i tot the food court can be better.
hahaha.
yea tried all e food court. i still prefer koufu though we are like alienated there.
well im gonna update abt fridae. the idea's project outing:D
first, we went to Pink Parlour for manicure =D

While waiting for eileen and sara doing their nails at gracia's
we camwhore a bit

haha next stop max brenner's chocolate bar@esplanade

went back to msq for shoppingggg.
sara left for her tution session.
went walked ard at shops like diva =]
finally found the ear studs iwanted like!#@%#&%#$@ ages ago

dinner @ billy bombers.
very funny exp when mei shee starts making requests.

we wanted to see the bald head merlion but failed.
so we went camwhoring ard.

2009-02-28T08:49:00.001-08:00

相遇一定是一种魔咒,
让你在我心中驻守
记得当初你的一举一动,
记得你阳光般的温柔
重逢是魔咒中的魔咒,
让我再也无法回头
从此跟著你的身影旋转,
时而快乐时而忧愁

你成为我今生最大的牵挂,

你成为我心上隐隐的伤口

为了让你脸上充满笑容,

浪漫柔情各种花招都出手

每当你掉下眼泪的时候,

每当你生气不语皱著眉头

心里的感觉我说不出口,

其实我最怕你飘然远走
患得患失都是为你,
骄傲自尊全部都失守
这样的感情让我害怕,
我更怕给你的还不够
爱你的心注定是依旧,
爱你的情注定要长久
尽管相遇是一种魔咒,
感谢它让我们
彼此拥有

张嘉倪-相遇的魔咒

2009-02-26T08:33:00.000-08:00

屋顶的天空是我们的
放学后夕阳
也都会是我们的
不会再仰慕更多了

唱一首属於我们的歌
让我们的伤
都慢慢慢的愈合
明天我又会是全新的

青春是手牵手坐上了
都不回头的火车
总有一天我们都老了
不会遗憾就ok了

伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐

我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢

自己和自己打一架了
想都想不通
反正就是这样了
不会再流泪更多了

有多少错误重蹈覆辙
有多少苦痛
还不是都过来了
想起来甚至还会笑呢

青春是人生的实验课
错也错得很值得
就算某天唱起这首歌
眼眶会有一点湿了

五月天-笑忘歌

2009-02-23T07:58:00.000-08:00

你的爱就像星辰,偶尔很亮偶尔很暗,我不盼绚丽的灿烂,只求为光能挡风寒

IM BACK TO UPDATE!
life's good these days.
thou tiring bt wonderful.
sp is fun okae
:DDDD
taking up modules, i hate Zbrush thou.
:D
i had loads of fun spending time with my new frens.

they went pool after school
:D
hard to put the fun that i had in words.

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as for love,
i'm sorry.
had been paranoid and insecure these days.
idk why.
i'll try changing my temper.
i love u like i always do.
=D
my fears are increasing while counting down to ur ns days.
wil u leave me?
wil u?

2009-02-08T10:12:00.000-08:00

it has been v long since i last touch this blog...
cny have nth much to be updated.
just as usual lor .

started my new stage of life in sp.
i'm totally disgusted by the whole lot of orientation outdoor programme.
and wat's even better is i fell sick on the second day of sch.
how nice.
took 3 days mc in a total of 5
as usual having the "new stage of life" emo-ness
last felt tt was when i first stepped into cts.
now trying to readapt to a brand new environment
the stress starts coming in again.
u tend to feel awkward in a new env with strangers.
as usual im the loner. always.
i;m glad tt i met v nice frens thou the culture seems very different
bt still , i enjoy my time spent with them
shant post e foto up cos i dun look nice in tt
.
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i start to miss my old frens, poa classmates and all sorts of things.
wuld it have been better if im in jc.?
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i would need a min to breathe.
sometimes feeling the change was too rapid
tt i couldnt really make myself feel comfortable abt it.
i felt breathless
idunwish ani frens to add on to this.
to fore warn ani frens ,
these weeks im adpating to something new,
the irritation and uncertainty is there.
i dun wish to get distracted or upset by aniting
sometimes i dun even bother entertaining calls or sms
cos i just feel tired and feel like being alone having some quiet space with my family or love.
so if u are unhappie abt it
or i forgot aniting tt u mention
or i neglect anione.
pls understand tt ,
will you guys do tt?

2009-01-16T07:31:00.000-08:00

seriously, im feeling so uncertain of the coming new stage of my life.
realised alot of pple gg to jc or ngee ann.
haha im v comfortable in being a loner
bt still... im so uncertain of the new lifestyle im going to experience next mth
FEB 02.
i cant wait for sch reopen though.
cos slacking my life off isnt the waaayyyyy......

2009-01-14T01:40:00.000-08:00

i'm back to blogging again.
like others, m gonna post my results.
nothing exciting since my pathway is all fixed.
L1R5 raw score is 13
minus off cca pt and hmt= 10
L1R4 10
3As 5Bs and additional A1 for Exp chinese B3 for CCA.
I PASSED PHYSICS AND ENGLISH
SHOCKING EH
SUPER SHOCKING to me.
i seriously cant believe it luh.
esp Physics.
the most disappointing was chem and poa,
bt expected yet i cant help to b disappointed luh.
bt overall im v satisfied.
eventuallie im stil in sp
no changes or rather i couldnt have ani chance to change.
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r.s wise,
i dun wan u to blame urself for spoiling my day.
its not ur fault.
and im no longer upset or angry.
i just wan u to be who you were .
dun hide dun avoid or run away from me.
i'm v tired,
i dun have ani more courage or energy to take ani big changes in our r.s
i hope u do noe tt.
seriously, the more u are gonna run away frm me
the more upset im feeling.
dun make it become a strain.
dun make me wanna give up ok?
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LCCI OR NOT?!
should i or should i not?
or should i go for CAT?
which is so much tougher bt fast route to ACCA
:/
bt still CAT is probably TWICE the fee of LCCI.
den if i continue ACCA another HUGE amount of money.
haiii.

2009-01-02T09:34:00.000-08:00

"Save Me From Myself"-CHRISTINA AGUILERA

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you've gotta be
Everything's changin
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waitin
with your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
from myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Cuz some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm cryin
Cuz when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smilin
You always save me from myself
from myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you
It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
a better woman to myself
to myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself
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for you...

2009-01-01T08:44:00.000-08:00

BRAND NEW YEARRR
2009
happie new year people:D
havent been updating cos im too lazy to do aniting.
hmmm had simple xmas and new year.
im contented
=]
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new year's resolution
-earn more money
-work hard for all areas
-get healthier
- lookbetter.
- overcome obstacles with dearie.
- get my lcci cert.
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這一年,
我哭過,笑過, 開心過, 失望過,
只求新的一年更加美好,
我就滿足了=]
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2008-12-23T09:45:00.000-08:00

first day of work is pretty ok.
there's alot to learn.
and im gonna conquer it yaye.
dint have enough sleep,
cos was totally freaked out by some screaming near my block
and the screamings resembled like ......
which totally scares me.
i tot things might come back again
bt nah im just thinking too much.
tt explains the totally unhappie mood todae.

2008-12-23T09:26:00.000-08:00

杨丞琳-左边

总是忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪

你才会给安慰

担心短暂的晴天

随时都可能被阴狸收回

等待有机会最坏也最甜美

我乐观却疲惫

因为太怕失去你

所以连快乐里都装满伤悲

你不曾发觉

你总是用右手牵着我

但是心却跳动在左边

你和我之间的遥远

永远隔着亲切爱少的可怜

伸出右手想陪着你向前走

感受你爱我的心跳在左边

那么深深爱你的我

想信你会了解

总在埋怨过你的冷漠

之后又急着说抱歉

彷佛向疏远的你乞求一点体贴

都是我不对

结果有可能最美也最可悲

我做好了准备

也许太自由的你

心里面那个家谁也不能回

你不曾发觉你总是用右手牵着我

感受你爱我的心跳在左边

你和我之间的遥远

我一直相信

总有一天你会用左手

牵着我走向明天未来很遥远

却会实现心在同一边

就能够听见你说的那句

我爱你你一定看得见

2008-12-20T21:47:00.000-08:00

仿佛如同一场梦
我们如此短暂的相逢
你像一阵春风
轻轻柔柔吹入我心中
而今何处是你往日的笑容
记忆中那样熟悉的笑容
你可知道我爱你想你
怨你念你深情永不变
难道你不曾回头
想想昨日的誓言
就算你留恋
开放在水中娇艳的水仙
别忘了寂寞的
山谷的角落里
野百合也有春天
野百合也有春天-阿桑
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frequent usage of computer and blog hopping made me wanna blog.
starting work this tues...
im exciteddddd......
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i'm definitely happy with being u.
i realised i dint have ani courage anymore
to fight for wad i want.
i felt so inferior to other girls.
how much they could have been a better girlfriend to u.
compared to them, im such bad girlfriend,
being possesive , clingy and bad tempered.
upset not becos of other girls, becos of myself.
i dun trust myself in being a good gf to deserve u.
maybe i shld just give up shldnt i ...

2008-12-19T07:22:00.000-08:00

welll....... seems like i've left this blog for ages.
OK. I M LEAVING OR RATHER I LEFT B FOR GOOD.
FOR GOOD.
shocking eh.
two weeks, wonderful two weeks in b.
hmm i dun mind working my heart and soul out for them
i dun mind rejecting other offers.
but still im too pissed off with the way they placed me in a situation where i dunno where to land.
thanks eh, kicking me around very good hur.
seriously, the treatment is so different.
u treat tt two Rs so good,
have u ever seen them wipe shelving for u.
or rather have ALLAN OR CAROL see tat.
blah wadever its over.
trying to spite me by asking R to take stock for u
yet he did one big mess and slowly.
make me laugh seriously.
so end of the story,
i tendered resignation letter.
and yaye.
freedom.
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so it happens to be they wanting to trsf me to central then china town den back to vivo and see where iam going to b transferred again.
it seriously upset me. and tt very day the stupid virus or bacteria or wadever tt is in my stomach starts to take effect.
something like food psn
worse still... i let dear see the unglam sight of me.
vomitting throughout the night.
somemore tt very night tt dear is staying at my hse.
yea practically laid on my bed feelign unwell for the next two days.
and served my one day notice on monday.
FREEEDOOOOMMMMM!

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i slacked off a few days and found a new job.
shant disclose what is it.
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JIUN JIA IS A HAPPIE GIRL FOR NOW.
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2008-12-11T06:50:00.000-08:00

期待一个好日子
工作不需我操心
能随便想想东西
喔喔
喝一杯茶也可以
写封信也可以
不做什么也可以
忙碌中又想起你
对我的若即若离
生气了也没痕迹
喔喔
忽然很想拥抱你
吻你措手不及
这只能想像而已
honey honey
要对你说声对不起
我总是没时间陪你
honey honey
你是否想亲亲密密
还是喜欢这段距离
虽然留点空间不见面
反而能够拉紧彼此的心
当我需要拥抱的时候
我总希望你在这里
<3
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duno how to start this blog posting,
mc todae.
just feeling too shag i guessed.
work was alrite.
culdnt transfer to jp.
well...
wad can i do.
hmmm.
vivo's bossini is very busy
i wuld say i hardly have ani time to just breathe and enjoy.
i am happy to have such nice bunch of colleagues.
thou almost broke down twice in this coming two weeks of work.
prolly the sensitive nature in me make me think too much
plus the stress:/
oh well.
but overall was great.
-----------
as for r.s,
im happy with wad i have currently.
just tt prolly im very paranoid.
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sometimes i wanted to let u go,
cos i always believe i am not good enough to b ur gf.
at least another girl could make u worry less and less tired.
yet im contradicting myself,
holding u tightly afraid of letting u go.
sometimes i feel very bad,
i dun even noe how to comfort u in times tt u need me.
i dun even noe how to cheer u up or understand u enough.
:/
bt still i'll learn okae?
muacks.
i love u .
do remember i'll always be by ur side
<33

2008-12-04T07:22:00.000-08:00

havent been updating too much these days.
damn tired from work ,
its energy sapping thou folding clothes entertaining pple is easy
bt when it comes to standing throughout the day walking around
its reallie killing.
yet the most motivational thing is KACHINGS
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probably becos the not very used to be back to work feeling.
tend to feel stress again.
and tt explains why i get emo when things clump up together.
when u start balancing family frens r.s and work
its so ....
tough.
friends. i wouldnt like to see them emo.
i shant dwell abt it.
it hurts when ur closer ones get hurt or wadever
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work wise as above.
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family i would say i rarely blog abt them
i've always cherish time with family
sometimes not tt im not filial or wad
just tt i just need some space to breathe
after long day of work i wuldnt like to get filled with each and every pouring woes.
im not e onlie child at home
dun just come shooting me when i dun talk to u
sometimes i just need a bit of space.
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love...
still i tend to think negatively.
shouted at him when i was lost upon alighting at e wrong busstop
how much did i not cherish him
:/
i reallie feel like chopping myself.
tsk
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the past still haunts.
nightmares.
not about J
bt every fearful moments seems to b back.
made me even more paranoid

2008-11-29T09:15:00.000-08:00

ily
hmm work gnna start soon...
spent time with my beloved todae as usual.
wasnt too emo until the tot tt work's gonna come in btwn us
likewise i was very paranoid,
likewise im very very "think alot".
cried when i reach home sitting beside him.
im very very afraid u might leave.
im afraid tt we might drift apart,
i dun wan history repeats itself.
i m so afraid tt u might just get another girl or something
:/
seriously,
was very upset.
looking at him den tears starts flowing.
arghhh,i noe its onlie few days lesser tt we r gonna meet.
bt it pains me so much
hearts him to e max
:D
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if u ever see this,
i love u
thou its just gonna cut a few days frm our week
bt i scared it might just drift us miles apart
how much i fear.
hugs.
i m not crying animore
jus in case its gnna make u heartache.
aniwae. i just wanna say i love u
and everymoment we spent meant alot to me.
i cherish every sec everymin everyhr
tt i m with u
<3

2008-11-26T09:36:00.001-08:00

i would say i havent been blogging much.
a mixture of happiness and unhappiness throughout i would say.
i shant mention the unhappiness as it has past i hoped.
i shall mention the happiness.
so many impt events has past.

first was e grad day.
quite sian-ed by the programmes
but class performance was GREAT:D
i love 4d1:D
camwhore throughout.
wasnt in my tip top condition tt day thou.
fish& co for class lunch.
it was damn fun luhhh.
walked ard and meet dearest after tt.
:D

second was prom.
cam whore throughout the dinner luh.
the food sucks in my opinion.
everyone looked so different.
Shuai ges Mei nus
hahaha. i m too lazy to upload fotos here pls take a look at my frenster.
they tonned at my hse tt nite.
haha seems like a couples' outing
eventuallie i dint join the other four in watching e horror shows
but chat with dearest in my room.

third was outing with sis hood.
haha ok it was my FIRST trip to botanic Garden
i noe its very sua gu.
but still...
haha enjoyed slacking my time off with my frens.
at least i smell freedom.
:D

Fourth was 602 class gathering.
hahahaha. it was like years since i ever met them
everyone like matured.
pretty fun and i bet theres gonna have more outings soon.
:D
amazed by how much everyone had changed.

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as we go on we remember
all the times we had together
when our lives changed
come whatever
we'll still be friends forever:D
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to: 4D1'08
thanks for being such a warm and nice class:D
i enjoyed my two yrs together spending with u guys,
may we still keep in contact despite the routes gonna be different
i <3 u guys

to : Sister hood ( Tricia, Sinyee, Quan Mei, Hwee Chin, Jia'en, Ying Ting, Khim Geok, QiShi.)
thanks for always being there .:D
i love u guys.
lets cherish the times we are gonna spend together
do keep in touch always
<33

to :602 '04
nice gathering i had for this yr.
may we still stay as united and keep in touch for the years down the road.
i <3 u

to: Dearest Boyfren a.ka L
i dont know if i do deserve such a good bf like u
i'll try to make myself feel assured and stop thinking so much.
may everything gonna be fine for us
and i still wanna spend alot of one month with u
thanks for always being there for me.
i love u.
words cant reallie express much of wad i think n how much u meant to me
but i guess actions do.
hugs.

2008-11-08T09:24:00.000-08:00

how much disasters have past?
i asked myself.
just happened to look at my past achives.
i somehow felt tt i am pretty different
probably time really changes one.
i used to be such immature girl.
holding on to things which shldnt be mine,
getting upset over non existence things.
so much r.s tt i have went through.
one after another, one more disappointing den the other.
i laughed at myself.
how immature i behaved.
blaming on things, clinging on past, venting anger on things tt shldnt be involving me
lets hope i can live differently.
*breathe in deeply
-----------------
the mess just cleared up,
ending all e troubles for my frens.
how much i apologise for the things tt happened
i reallie trouble my frens alot.
and i felt guilty.
>.<
but aniwae it ended
and i wuldnt want to see J at all in my life.
such sickening
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it appeared to be a new beginning of my life.
<3
celebrate life ,people
:D

2008-09-23T08:23:00.001-07:00

i've decided to open my blog back to public mode.
i'm tired of hiding.
so peeps enjoy:D

2008-08-31T10:22:00.000-07:00

some interesting post i saw while reading some senior's blog.

45 Things a girl wants but will NOT ask for!

1 . Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her your jacket.

5. Kiss her slowly.

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her somewhere.

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

11. Smile with her.

12. Take pictures with her.

13. Pull her onto your lap.

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

19. Tell her she's beautiful.

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her

24. Make her feel loved.

25-kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!!!!*

26-don't lie to HER.*

27-DON'T cheat on her.*

28-take her ANYWHERE she wants

29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.

30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she does't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.*

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.

32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.*

33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).*

34 . While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automaticall y put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.

35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. Ifshes upset, comfort her

.36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.*

37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.*

38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you .

39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.*

40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible*

41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS*

42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.*

43. Take her for LONG walks at night.

44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.*

45. sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down toher face and kiss her while sitting on her

.31 Ways to make a girl smile.

1. Tell her she is beautiful

2. Hold her hand at any moment … even if its ust for a second.

3. Hug her from behind

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.

5. Wrestle with her :)

6. Don’t go hang out with you ex when she is not with you, you might not relize how badly it hurts her.

7. If youre talking to another girl, when you’re done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her….let her know she’s yours and they aren’t.

8. Write her notes or call her just to say “hi”

9. Introduce her to your friends … as your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

11. Pick her up (she loves it)

12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn’t like it

13. Make her laugh

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15. If she’s mad at you, kiss her.

16. If you care about her, then TELL HER

17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal (she’ll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she’ll treasure it forever), and one of your t-shirts (she’ll most likely wear it to bed) or sweatshirts sprayed with her cologne!! and flowers or something occasionally.

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you’re alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile

.20. Hang out with her on weekends

21. Kiss her in the rain22. Kiss her just for the heck of it

23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if its’n simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.

25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don’t (it’ll make her happy.)

26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don’t care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don’t necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.

27. Give her wat she wants

28. Recognize the small things … they usually mean the most.

29. Don’t hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she’ll feel left out.

30. Hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang wit your girl friend all the time

31. If u care about her…SHOW her!

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silly boy,i love u.

i think u 'llnvr understand how much i loved u

upon reaching 16 mths, reflecting back on how much we've went through:)

<3>

mixed feelings still. i just hope everything wouldnt change. i just hope everything would remain at it is.

2008-08-05T02:11:00.000-07:00

havent been updating.
lots of things happened btwn these few mths.

To: Those who may be concerned

seriously not i dun wan to take you guys advice to turn up in school. and not as if i just wanna escape everything in school or the work load. I know exactly and very clearly what i am doing, dun talk to me as if you know what i am thinking and start lecturing me. I definitely know myself very well and very clear of what i am doing. sometimes i really dun need these attention, not tt i wan to isolate myself, bt i prefer having my own space and my own time. It may not be as effective studying at home or alone, but to me i need to learn things at my own pace and standard. i do know those are concerns and care by u guys bt i really prefer to do things on my own and i need my own space, there's a limit on what pple can do so dun go over the limit and make me dislike you.

Seriously i think these days i have been pulling myself too close to my friends and family,when they put in too much advice when they dun even understand me, it makes me feel even uncomfortable. i am too uncomfortable with this too close distance. i prefer not to explain myself, as i really wish to keep everything private, i have my own life, i need my own space so please dun step over that line and invade my own private space. it will make me draw further frm u guys. so ya just leave me alone, i know clearly what i am doing and have been doing.

i dislike tt much attention. i dont like to seek attention.

leave me alone.

something make me very disappointed is the closest fren tt i known for years does not understand me more than someone who i've known less than a few years.

2008-06-20T11:30:00.000-07:00

finished part of my english homework,
2 speeches, 2 comprehension, 1 narrative
finished part of my chemistry homework,
4 section Bs, 3 Section As , partly done section Cs
finished part of my a maths homework,
Amaths paper1,
i left physics undone, cos i have problems with nt studying first den do it,
so i shall study before i do it,
at least i've learnt electro magnetism and whatever that has gotta do with it last week
with the help of my bro's fren,
:)
i wish i would have more interest on physics

i've done revising rise factors of venice :D
and done a mind map on it
yaye!

i plan to study till 4 am todae
spent my time only study electricity:(
mwhaha i like tt feeling,
tt's why i cant slack tonight:(

new house is on its way,
painting of my room and study room by the workers are done:D
curtains are bought
curtain rods are confirmed
my door curtain thingy is done,
furniture thingy coming soon,
everything is in place
:)

after this holidaes
i really realise i prefer to not to have so much attention,
i feel so lost with big events and big crowds

aniwae:D
i love everyone:D

2008-05-19T07:17:00.000-07:00

:( felt so upset upon seeing the earthquake's news for e past few days
life's so fragile):
the feeling seeing other people at the other side of our world is suffering is indescribable):
just. :(
feeling stressed as u see the days nearing to e o level :(
:(:(
i need some space need some time i need everything :(

2008-05-10T11:00:00.000-07:00

sick sick sick~
the flu virus have been spreading like almost 10 people i knw 7 are sick.
blah and medcine doesnt seems to work at all.
):
starts to lose interest in sec sch stuff these days.
when u are stacked wid piles of undone hwk
and days of staying back for mye.
totally drained~
can't expect my results.
or rather just tired.
i still prefer to self study den teachers guided.
cos i am nt very used to e way tt they teach.

):

packing some moving house stuff.
when i look at the toys i played since young,
i wish to go back to my childhood.
when i could just play my whole day off .

feeling restless these days
just dread going to school
dislike my routinary sch life
where results are always the first thing how pple look at you
Mye are always my worst days
cos i always expect perfection in my results
bt well it always doesnt turns out tt way i wanted.
gotta learn to relax.
to prevent blanking out in exams.

i need some air, some space to leave me alone from the textbooks,
and get nearer to what i wanna do and relax.

life...

2008-05-03T11:57:00.001-07:00

this place seems to accumulate too much of dusts.
havent been feeling well.
down with terrible cough and freaking wisdom tooth.
gonna leave this beloved place,redhill, in a few mths time, moving to a new environment.
time do flies,it was almost 8 yrs when i first moved to this place,
facing a new environment ,i've made new frens and eventuallie graduated frm my primary sch with a score of 248. throughout the years i've left so much memories be it good or badmostly of r/s . when i will be moving to my new house, and leave here, it signifies how much i've grown up upon experiencing love, break ups, friendship,betrayal, family problems, and the lost of love ones. i am looking forward to the 2 mths time, when i am gonna experience a new environment:D
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getting old growingup:)

2008-04-13T09:51:00.000-07:00

theres some problem wid my sentence structure.:p

2008-03-31T09:54:00.000-07:00

i am an insane- to- be.

haha.

just getting too much stressed frm sch

i dun even haf timeto sleep.

2008-03-30T09:54:00.000-07:00

washed my beloved cj7 pouch cos it seems dirty.
he look so happie after e bathe.
just being childish la.
:D

hmmm let me update abt what i 've beeen doing for e weekends

went for dinner wid jie todae after having my butt stuck on e sofa for like ages.

doing 10 tys graph questions,
6 pages of lu questions though there's a lot i cant do
doing recording,.
tys english summary
chemistry wb, chinese and 2 questions of poa,
touching up my physics hwk.
oh well. see how torturous when i come to weekends,
when i have to glue my butt to e chair and do work
oh well.
>.< no wonder i have been accumulating fats on my stomach
cos have been sitting too much cosing indigestions:P
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aniwae end here.
having stomachache at this pt in time.

2008-03-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

o level i pressing me damn hard.
>.<
gotta work hard
go go go!
think i am slacking these daes without kor kor stressing me :P
haha.
so i better make sure i am on track

2008-03-27T09:30:00.001-07:00

drained.
somehow feeling damn tired todae.
oh well.

2008-03-25T10:31:00.000-07:00

What Jiun Jia Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-03-24T09:56:00.001-07:00

i can hardly stay on comp for too long
my eyes are swollen due to the crying of my loss of wallet.
upset.
serious.
bt no kind souls ended up helping to pass e wallet to e driver.
still, probably taking the cash and valuables throwing e wallet away.
=[
shant curse them thou.
:/
gnite guys just too exhausted.

2008-03-23T09:31:00.001-07:00

i cant help to stuck wid my comp.
irritating~
someone please motivate me to study more more moreMORE!
i realise i havent been studying hard enough.
must jia you le.
must score straight As
kidding la. IMPOSSIBLE!
haha.
the most eh l1r4 <10
yaye!
haha den i can possibly enter ngee ann like no body's business.
hehe.
the more the school is trying to psycho me(us)to go to jc
the more i dun feel like gg.
argh
they just haf those subjects tt i dun like studying
and wihtout uni exemptions
yet ...
poly. its so much more on hands on rather.
plus they haf uni exemptions if u can make it to uni
cut off like almost 1 yr ?
plus u could even try getting diploma plus if ur gpa gets 3.2 and above
lalala.
so i must jia you and get in to my fave poly
den jia you even more to score my g.p.a
and yaye!
hehe. no more pe lessons for poly
yet jc shld haf
haha jc is nt my kind of life since i am not so active after all.
---
current l1r5 is 16
l1b2r2 is 11
saddening.
seriously saddening
i could barely make it into the best course in sp,
or even the lousiest business course in np.
saddddd....
i shall jia you and hit like 10? or single digit.
=D
muackies.
if you who are reading my posts ,and is interested to study wid me please tell me
we go studying together.
whaha.
okae. tt's all for todae.
getting to high tonight.

2008-03-22T08:07:00.001-07:00

haha. todae went dear hse to complete e puzzle
den went gym to run off my fats.
eh nt bad i ran3 km burnt 150calories
thou dear burn like 200?
haha den eat at his hse.
kinda like his mum's cooking
first time eating dinner @ his hse
abit weird thou.
:D
bought cj7 and an ice cream pouch:D
kinda expensive though
gotta cut dwn my expenses le ba
hehe.
still got swiss cottage hwk to finish >.<
needa study a maths chemistry and physics.
>.<
haha

2008-03-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

相遇一定是一种魔咒
,
让我甘于被你看守

记得当初你的一举一动,

记得你阳光般的温柔

重逢是魔咒中的魔咒,

让我再也无法回头

从此跟著你的身影旋转,

时而快乐时而忧愁

你成为我的幸运我的主宰

,你医治我心上所有的伤口

为了你我将充满笑容,

报答你在我身边扮演小丑

每当我掉下眼泪的时候,

每当我生气不语皱著眉头

心里的感觉我说不出口

,其实我最怕你飘然远走

一切患得患失为了你,

所有骄傲自尊都失守

这样的感情让我害怕,

但是我绝对不会逃走

爱你的心注定是依旧,

爱你的情注定要长久

尽管相遇是一种魔咒,

幸福却因为它从此拥有

相遇的魔咒-张嘉倪

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probably this best describe my feelings?
:)
still craving for shopping
gt loads i feel like buying
the top5 will be
1)Waterproof liquid eye liner
2)Eye Shimmer Eye Liner
3)T-shirts(including bf shirt)
4)Pouches
5)tank tops
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the next 5 will be
6)a better mascara maybe
7)Nf shorts(waiting for my blogshop to finish capping)
8)couple slippers( my own i'll be waiting for gss)
9)wallet
10)accessories(esp. hair accessories)
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haha. bleah.
tt its. but mostly have to wait till gss
easier

2008-03-21T01:21:00.001-07:00

i can't wait to get into poly>.<
arghhh

2008-03-20T07:28:00.001-07:00

sick. :(
awwww

2008-03-17T08:50:00.000-07:00

First started out...

2nd date:)

soon after..
hees.
hahas.
woahhh

his birthdae :)

now.tenth month and still counting:)

2008-03-16T09:50:00.000-07:00

argh stomachache all e time >.<
siannnnn.
hmmm blogshop doing pretty well. kinda satisfied.
rushing hwk yet wanting to come here and blog for a while.
<33
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hmmm sometimes i wonder why u love me:)
since there are so much pretty girls out there.
i aint very attractive and pretty:/

2008-03-15T11:21:00.000-07:00

<33
its e tenth mth! happy!!
went for a nice dinner, nice shopping and movie!
leap years was a nice one. like it alot .
cut my hair. dun be surprise when u guys see me.
=DD aniwae i am feeling very physically tired now.
so better remove my make up and get to bed.
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dear, thanks for being here alwaes. haha shld pamper ur gf less,
cos she'll be overly pampered by ya. the dinner was nice thanks!
having a boyfriend to eat a nice dinner make me feel so xin fu.
<33
huggies, sry for being bad tempered at times and possesive.
i'll try my best to be ur best gf! =D
hugs and kisses.

2008-03-13T11:06:00.000-07:00

oh well. i shall put a warning bah. just leave me alone this week. jj is having extremely moodswing for this week . nth much. bt i will just bite pple who irritates me. pms ithink. bt doubt so. seriously, dun go over my limits. i. seriously. dun. like. pple. to . force. me doing. other.things.
uh huh. tt's it. just beware off jj's irritating temper this week bah=\.
i miss yoshi. its like almost a year since i join yoshi. i rmb reporting my first dae of work after my march hols. definitely rmb. doubt u guys are reading it. bt i miss you guys. fun having u guys around. its like my second home definitely. <33 it brightens my life. hmm though almost everyone haf left the store everytime i past by the store, the images of how we used to be always flashed through my mind. hugs and kisses. to you guys.
urghhh. like victor. i hate rain~ it makes me feel so tired and sick. moody too!
=[ times 6 times 10^23 :P copy righted frm vic.
aniwae u can see how pms i am frm my post. pissed off at e start, sad and happie at the end.
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aniwae. gtg for my beauty sleep
physics things tmr
siann

2008-03-10T09:06:00.000-07:00

yeapsss. just feeling uber siann
stomach cramping like maddd
>.<
this sat shall be me and dear dear de 10th mth anni:)
uber happieee
yipee!
just had a nice talk wid him on e phone.
miss him loads
<33
talked about how much we've been through
and whyyie we love each other =DD
so mushy~
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hehe:D
shall save up for e gss soooonnnn.
muackies
shall go for a hair cut soon
:D
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thanks for being wid me always
i know i can be irritating at times
i know i dun haf a nice temper
thanks for being understanding
like you've said
those toughs, quarrels , pissed off are a way of better understandable communication btwn us
:) i love you naughty boy!
JJ <3 J :D
hugs and kisses

2008-03-09T10:32:00.000-07:00

sian sian sian
though tis week its my hols but still sian
cos i gt super loads to do>.<
argh aniwae gt to sleep
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i dun reallie knw myself
i dun knw am i feeling insecure
or am i possesive
or whatever.
:/

2008-03-09T01:02:00.000-08:00

幸福的风-杨宗纬

因为我永远只能一个人生活

孤单的快乐哀愁

偶尔可以伪装潇洒

只有心里慌乱起来自己喝酒

因为你只是一个美丽的偶然

吹淋我不经意降落

谁知道你不同

谁知道你不走

拥抱著我说终于找到了我

你看穿我的轮廓

亲吻我的奋勇

不在乎我曾经的错

如果不是你的款款温柔

还以为真爱只是一个传说

请相信我的承诺

虽然有点笨拙

但我看见幸福的风

如果我把我的手放在背后

愿不愿意牵著一起走
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2008-03-08T06:46:00.001-08:00

oh wellll...
tiring weekk ended. finally~~~
hehe. bt just feeling sian cos i saw sth i like no $$ buy..
http://diarieslas.blogspot.com/2007_02_25_archive.html
it just make me feel like buying it like maddd

2008-03-04T08:45:00.000-08:00

o well.
i hope i dint let anyone misunderstood my ppost previously.
:]
>.<

2008-03-04T06:05:00.001-08:00

i haf..
too much to study
too little time
too much to digest
too little rest
too much of food
too little of exercise
:[
6 tests in a week
>.<
these seems like nvr ending
sometimes i just wish to stroll at the beach
enjoying the sea breeze rather than facing my work and comp
everynight.
think i gonna turn crazy soon
too much assignment to be completed
argh~~~~~~
someone save me luh~~~
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u will onlie wan other people to change their things or activities becos of u
yet haf u ever thot of understanding pple having their own life too?
u onlie know how to reject pple when u cant make it yet they ask u out
yet u could throw ur freaking temper becos other pple cant make it to go out wid u
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counting down to 7 mths and 16 daes to o level

2008-03-03T06:07:00.000-08:00

how much have u ever rmb tt i need u
being so stressed
though ur encouragement i onlie wish to hear ur voice
comforting me.
i dun require much.
yet u dun seems to.

2008-03-02T09:00:00.000-08:00

where's my freaking usb cable for e mp3
knocked my head against e rack beside my bed just becos of it
i think i will turn dumb for the next few daes due to the badly hit on my head
pain pain pain
even now i cant think properly
aniwae
just sian
and more sian
for the week
the month
the year
cos o's coming in ard mths
paying so much yet ended up being tortured wid all e hwk
i guess every weekend i ended up wid more than 10 hwk
3 for chi
1for eng
2 for maths
and blah blah blah
can die
>.<
i am very discourage frm those test
someone motivate me pls~~~
argh well went shopping wid dear and mum for consecutive 2 daes
first dae becos sy's bdae
went bugis bought my bf shirt and mickey +mario shirt
was kinda pissed when dear dun believe its suppose to be printed in a bit vintage look
bt still~
i love him
hmmm
2dae went bugis den pple's park
too lazy to shop at bugis
so bought a black shawl , purple tube and a black cardigan abit winter kind
guess i am spending too much kaching on my dressing>.<
hmm bt girls mah
hehe
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stupid stomachache is haunting me again
pestering me to go toilet.
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hmmmm
aniwae
last.
boy,
i feel like hugging u
>.<
we seems to have lesser to talk these daes
probably we are tired and busy
probably i am too sensitive
just felt tt we seems abit drifting recently
>.<
thinking too much>.<
muackies
sorry recently if i apear to be moody.
cos super tired wid my sch
love ya!
dont doubt.
i am talking abt u.
jasper<3
hehe.
huggies

2008-03-01T06:58:00.001-08:00

it've been like ages since i ever post on blogg.
have been looking thru so many pples blog
realise everyone's having e pre o level syndrome
so overly stressed by all the work and stuff
test like nvr ending
urgh chem test was a very big blow to me
followed by tt a maths test
totally blanked out upon doing the first question
seeing the paper i could almost cry man
i wonder how much will i score
realised when i try harder to grab those distinctions
i tend to make myself feel overly stressed
and blanked out during tests
bt trying to motivate myself to do consistent studies
cos i dun wanna end up having hard time during e revision period
i cld sae o lvl is coming damn soon
first paper on 20th of october.
minus the hours of sleep eat shit andbathe
i am only left with 4-5 mths of hours studying for 8 SUBJECTS!
cant imagine how my life will be like when nearer to e term 3 exam><
i have where i wanna go
bt it matters if i could go.
bt at least i got an aim & goal to work for.
siansian sian
hmm was feeling abit bu an
cos of some stuff.
worried.
hmmmmmmmm.................
aniwae tt's all~
gotta go burn my midnight oil
wid my "beloved" hwk
hugs and kisses

2008-01-03T08:41:00.000-08:00

peeps, comp spoilt, unable to come online so often to blog.
=/ i still love u guys:D
aniting can just msg me=]
cya. brand new year ahead =]]
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sometimes i wonder..

2007-12-06T08:28:00.000-08:00

bla stupid food poisoning=.=
sianed =[
everyone being emo
i also a bit
getting oversensitive nt just affect u
me too.
u will think i am irritating
i think tt me myself is irritating also
i hate tt feeling
cos we come so far tgt
and i obviously hate quarrelling wid u
>.<

2007-11-27T01:02:00.000-08:00

whenever my fone rings i wish it was u
when will my fone ever ring and appear ur name ?
random.
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tml leaving for bangkok.

2007-11-23T10:57:00.000-08:00

yawns 3. 27 am just finish watching drama series.
tired.
bleah will be leaving fo rbangkok soon enough
=\
i will miss him very very very much
awwww
how i wish i can see him before i leave for my bangkok trip
blah bt impossible
=\
aniwae gtg
nitez

2007-11-19T08:57:00.001-08:00

random:P

2007-11-17T05:33:00.000-08:00

9:33 pm
blah blah blah
have been sleeping since ytd 3 am
wake up and sleep
den sleep and wake up
almost throughout the whole dae
feel so restless
and tired
yawns
i hate my current hairstyle
thanks to my mum
blah
wid this hairstyle make me feel even more inconfident of myself
=[[
aniwae.
still finding a better job
too lazy and too inconfident of gg out
blah
feeling abit pms
kinda.
just finished my sinful dinner
nice waffle plus ice cream
wanted to order delivery
wanna save money though
so dint realie order
boring dae
indulging wid o2 jam
finallie i can play
installed it like a million times
=P
aniwae i am feeling tired again
think i am gonna falls ick or wahtever feeling so tired
XD

2007-11-11T09:33:00.000-08:00

星星在天上写诗
浪漫到放肆
嘴角的吻还未湿
我还受掩饰
我调整了我坐姿
假装更矜持
你的紧张你的公式
就像个孩子
你把我喝完的可乐
来换当作戒指
轻轻套上了我手指
你问能不能一辈子
那一秒突然爱上了你
傻傻的固执
我不要你解释
我不要你发誓
我只要你记得此刻
你眼里我的样子
爱我不要解释
爱我不要发誓
这一刻到世界末日
让我们一起把爱
化成最美最美的钻石
你把平凡的日子
变成纪念日
永恒变成未来史
男孩变王子
我不要有大房子
也不要大宝石
我会珍惜可乐戒指
永恒的消失
你用吃完的糖果纸
那是你的方式
默默地写下你发誓
你说保护我一辈子
那一秒突然看到了
你背后的双翅
从此刻到世界末日
活成最美的钻石
你在等答案
我会对你说
yes
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<333 i love this song

2007-11-11T09:31:00.000-08:00

actuallie.
i shldnt be online now
tml still gt history remedial:P
too baddd.
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boreddd
i can faint when i see the amt of hwk i haf for this hols.
:P

2007-11-09T10:39:00.001-08:00

i wanna type chinese bt i dun haf e software=[[
sixth month
ani comments?
well i wuld sae
yes i am inconfident
in a way tt
i still cant believe u wuld choose me who is so
normal , nth special, i haf neither talents,not intelligence
as a girlfren
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bt
i wuld sae
i love u
<3
i know u wuldnt be reading my blog
after tt quarrel

2007-11-05T07:12:00.001-08:00

irritated~
dun knw why my dad seems to be irritated larh
kao.
i dint do aniting wrong can
i ask him if he wanna eat so i leave the food there
den he scolded me for nt clearing up
wad the.
=[
simply dun understand wads on parents mind

2007-11-05T07:02:00.000-08:00

kinda tired
blah.
cant wait for lessons to be gone
yawnsszzzz
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shant say much.
i just simply miss my bf

2007-11-04T08:13:00.001-08:00

well my body starts itching due to the peanut allergy
ate peanuts this afternoon
bt i ate a little onlie lor
hmph.
went makan and walk wid jie
fun fun.
=D
in e end dear make me super worried
when he call and talk in a weird wae
make me very worried
den my heart gg pump out like tt
=[

2007-11-03T11:24:00.000-07:00

mwahahahah
=]
--
undescribable.
un understandable
irritatable
tt's me!
so random.
saw monica ytd
she's so scary
evertime i see her like see ghost like tt
lols.
meeting jie for dinner tml
yaye
finaliieee
=D

2007-11-03T09:26:00.001-07:00

i wann this guyyy: I'm the guy who will text you
every single morning and tell you good
morning, and every single night to tell
you sweet dreams.

I'm the guy who will hold you when
you're crying and wipe away your tears.

I'm the guy who still thinks you're
beautiful with no make-up on, wearing
your most torn up jeans and a plain
tee-shirt.& lt;BR>
I'm the guy who won't pressure you to
do things that you don't want to do.

I'm the guy who kisses you on the
forehead; it doesn't always have to be
on the mouth.

I'm the guy who doesn't kiss and tell.

I'm the guy who actually listens to you
when you talk.

I'm the guy who's waited all day
because I'm looking forward to our date
that night.

I'm the guy who is content to just be
able to hold you and wants nothing
more.

I'm the guy who can't help but smile
when you walk into the room.

I'm the guy who's perfectly content
with staying in and watching movies and
cuddling.

I'm the guy who won't lie to you about
where he's going or where he's been, or
who he's been with.

I'm the guy who gets butterflies when
he hears your name.

I'm the guy who's not afraid to tell
his friends he loves you.

I'm the guy who doesn't mess with other
girls when I have you; you're the only
one that I need.

I'm the guy who doesn't care about your
imperfection s, and loves you more for
them; who wants a perfect girl? that's
just boring.

I'm the guy who will hold you while we
watch the sunset.

I'M THE GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE
YOU THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.

I AM THIS GUY.. one of many.. who
always
end s up losing her to the jerks who
will
treat her like crap and are so
concerned about getting some.

2007-11-02T09:57:00.001-07:00

quite a long ago post yet seen it again
so shall post again
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every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her.
even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.
• give her one of your t-shirts tosleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful
.• look into her eyes when you talk toher.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes
.• look at her like she`s the only girlyou see.
• tickle her even when she says stop
hold her hand when you`re around yourfriends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tellher you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she`ssick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• write her letters
.• let her wear your clothes.
• when she`s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she`s important.
• let her take all the photos she wantsof you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tellher.
• and when you tell her, love her likeyou`ve never loved someone before.
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2007-11-02T09:53:00.001-07:00

TIRED.
=]
--
shant sae much
:]
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dun take me for granted.

2007-11-01T09:17:00.000-07:00

came back home not long
went out wid dear
hmmm not a bad dae
talked alot
realised a lot
=]
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well. recently i looked back
frm 2 yrs ago till now
i seems to have grown in my thinking
in relationship
i probably have a more clear and a slightly more mature thinking towards relationship
i could sae i love the one i am being wid now
and so far he has make my life full ofhappiness
and i realise love someone is not being wid tt person
bt seeign that person to be well to be good in his or her life
tt's wad love reallie means
and at this moment
i definitely dun get into a r/s just for a lifestyle
for a feeling of being loved
bt wad i wan frm a r/s
is commitment
holding on and helping out each other
to overcome wadever may happen in life
rich poor sad happie or wadevr
i seems too early to say this
well fine
just writing wad i tot
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i love u.

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5 and a half month still counting
iam sorrie i made u worrid
by asking u weird questions
by keeping things to myself
i am sorrie
i believe we can overcome this communication barrier
we are just a call away frm each other.
i love u.